I'm sitting here trying to find something positive to type.  I've had a good day, but it hasn't ended well.  And, of course, I can't share why, but I'm sure some of you will guess.  One phone call seems to be able to turn a day around faster than you can say "speed dial." 

I wish I could put here everything I feel right now, the anger, the hurt, the bitterness, the betrayal, all of it right here, hit delete and erase it.  I wish it were just that easy.

But, since the delete key does not work on feelings, I need to choose something real.  I will play a game, the Glad Game.  Have you seen the movie "Pollyanna?" 

I will find something to be glad about:

I am glad that I get to see Will on Saturday.

I am glad that I have awesome friends.

I am glad that my childhood playmates, cousins, have become my dearest friends of all.

I am glad that I have a home and everything in that makes me comfortable.  I am blessed.

I am glad that I have a mother and had a grandfather that taught me how to laugh loud and often, to enjoy the simple things of life.

There, now I feel better.

Love to all

I've felt like blogging lately.  Does this mean there's hope around the corner?  I think so.

I've thought, lately, about my life...how can I not? Right?

I've been an officer, now, for 15 years.  Being 38, I have, roughly, 30 more years to go.  So, I'm a third of the way "done" with my "career."  (I hate calling it a career, it's way more than that, but what's the word?)

In 15 years, I've had 11 appointments:  Greenwood, SC; Easley, SC; Wilmington, NC; Charlotte Temple, NC; Greensboro, NC; Jacksonville, AR; Russellville, AR; Ardmore, OK; Norman, OK; Enid, OK; and now, Johnson City, TN.

I've assisted some amazing people:  before training, Majors Troy & Orinda Raynor; summer assignment, Majors Vern & Martha Jewett; Christmas assignment, Capt. Cathy Adams; Greenwood, Major Billie Jean Waller; while in Easley, we were attatched to Greenville, SC, with Capts. RC & Gail Fleeman; in Wilmington, Majors Mike & Judy Vincent; Charlotte Temple with Majors Omer & Ann McKinney; Greensboro with Majors Eddie & Kathy Hobgood; in Ardmore with Majors Randall & Barbara Wilson; in Enid with Majors Johnny & Kathy Poff and now Majors Gary & Patty Elliott in Johnson City.  While in Jacksonville, we served under the area command with Majors Charles & Sharon Smith & Majors Phil & Donna Murphy.  Yes, I've learned a lot and been loved a lot from these people.

I've served under 7 DC's:  David Mikles, Jake Tritton, Al Ward, Steve Hedgren, Henry Gonzalez, Ken Luyk, and, now, John Needham.  Each one of them has, at some time or another, extended to us, much grace and mercy and even second chances

In 15 years, I've gotten married, had 5 dogs (not at once), 3 children (Will, born in Greensboro; Emma, born in Jacksonville; and Graeme, born in Russellville.)  And now, I'm getting a divorce.  Wow.  These 15 years now seem like a lifetime...and there's still 30 more to go.

What will 30 more years bring?  I am hopeful, or trying to be.  Some days I'm scared to death of being alone.  Every day, God reminds me of His presence though the love and messages of those near by.

I can't wait to see what God will do next with me.  I am in His hands and I trust Him, fully.  I've gotten to the end of my rope and He was still there.

What this past year and a half has shown me is who my friends are, and I found out that I had more than I thought I did.

Love to all